Diving deeper beyond what we are taught and presented in the mainstream realm of education lead me to my spiritual path that continues to unfold & blow my mind.
There were some major lows in 2020 when I let my mind completely spin out because everything I was questioning over the last decade was now coming close to home.
I felt the heaviness of fear of what this could all mean and where it may be heading… and I wanted nothing to do with it. I also didn’t realize to the extent of how much I held onto and hid this part of me that deeply didn’t trust government/corporations and those beyond that pull the strings.
Everyday I am grateful for my curious mind and strong intuition for guiding me to some of the greatest teachers yet, who have all in one way or another (mostly w/out ever knowing they did) offered a trail of crumbs to guide me back home to my deepest Truths.
Was I ever triggered? YES! But my passion for growth kept my ego in check to stay humble enough to pause, breathe, lean in and listen with an open heart.
This last year has been an initiation to wake up and up-level even more… shifting into spaces of non judgment and non duality… practicing being in the place of neutral bliss.
This doesn’t mean I don’t have a view or stand up for Truth… it just means I am not triggered, and if/when I am, I am able to acknowledge my resistance and then let it go quicker and quicker… moving beyond the duality of it all. This is my current practice.
It’s easy and tempting to get stuck in the realm of ‘conspiracy theories/facts’ and stay there because we want to find out more & more, mostly because of how shocking & addicting it all is!
Conspiracy theories/facts aren’t ‘wrong’ to get into because there is a lot of dark stuff going on in the world that many of us need to wake up too. But, when you start going into it, you’ll also start to absorb it.
The responsible thing to do is then go into your own sub conscious mind and see what part of you is contributing to these realities. Most people look out into the world and think “well this has nothing to do with me”… but truth is, if it bothers you or triggers you in any way, then it’s in your consciousness… there is an imprint.
From my perspective, there is a difference between being aware/informed and being in FEAR and reaction. I still check in and give myself a time limit on how much I research what’s going on… and then I practice dropping it and focus my attention on the present moment, coming back to neutrality. And if I feel anger, sadness, rage, disgust or any strong reaction at all, I know that there is a part of me that needs to be healed.
Our shadows and density are coming up to the surface to be TRANSFORMED.
What’s out there is what’s inside. What I am learning to shift is that it’s not ‘them’ doing this to us, rather, this is the result of what we’ve got going on within us collectively (even if we think we’re clear). We’ve inherited so much programming we’re not even aware of in our sub conscious minds & DNA, and it’s being projected into the world around us… all of the isms, fear, judgment, division, comparison etc.
When we understand that what’s going on out there is projected from within, that we are constantly manifesting our realities wether we realize it or not… that our sub conscious programs are ruling the show which makes up 95% of our scripts… then perhaps we would become SUPER aware and discerning of what we are feeding our minds and what words are coming out of our mouths.
How we speak matters. How and what we think matters. What we believe matters.
What timeline do you wish to tap into? Are you able to practice dropping into your heart and imagine a world where people are sovereign? Free? Abundant? Healthy? Empowered? Honest?
The time is now to truly remember and access how powerful we really are, to take full responsibility for ourselves and our minds… and to remember not to de-humanize our fellow brothers and sisters during this process.
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